Have been thinking a lot yesterday!!! When he call and sae he wont be meeting me wont be coming over my hse i feel numb no feeling if last time i sure feel sad and wanted so much to see him BUT yesterday i feel numb juz told him ok WHY suddenly all my feeling is numb and he suddenly pop out from dunno where but i didnt feel so so happy or excited WHY?? Maybe last time too much of quarrel and too much of giving in to him i feel sian but i still love him a lot like last time, maybe juz feeling WHY AM I ALWAYS THE ONE GIVING IN!!!! When i am unhappy and angry he juz hack care but when he unhappy or angry i will haf to gif in even if it is not my fault... Sometime juz voice out wat i am unhappy with he will juz sae okie fine then break off loh WTH we been tgt 5yrs you can juz sae break off as u happy as u like you, sometime you make mi feel tat i stand nothing in ur heart even with me or without mi ur life still the same haiz~~ no choice i choosen this r/s in the 1st place... Just let me grumble at the moment i realli feeling freaking unhappy and uncomfortable!!!! This whole week is not a good week for me a fucking week... Of course we have happy moment being together and i do feel happy being with him maybe i should not ask for more, the more i expect the more disappointment I get as no one is perfect!!! Do hope our r/s will improve instead of worsen... Don't wanna make a choice tat make mi regret forever..
Ok pls ignore my blog for today juz wanna shout out my feeling!!! Tomorrow will be a better day for me... yeah!!!
Ok should plan tonight wanna go where chill out wif yunnie and jia!! Chilling session...
